“The sky guides the sun down at the end of the day
The ocean calms the burning embers until the light fades away
Sit and watch the longest existing love on Earth
For the sky and the ocean have been together since birth”—Kristopher <3
"Hm…Ok. Well, you’re gonna finish school and get a fantastic job. I’ll be maybe working somewhere else. Somewhere better than an arcade. We’ll get married and move somewhere. Like Washington. Or Japan. Wherever we go, you can fulfill your dream. You’ll be a real artist. We can have kids. You’ll come home from work and the kids will be all like "Mommy!" and I’ll be like, "Come on, it’s dinner time," and we’ll all eat. And then we’ll send them to bed and they’ll complain because they’re kids and they think they’re invincible but I bet once they get into their rooms they’ll just knock right out. And we’ll go to bed and just be together, and wake up together, and build this thing together for the rest of our lives. And then we’ll…."
I’ve been in an absolutely horrendous state for the past few days.
I’ve been coming down with flu-like symptoms that leave me feeling horribly exhausted, body achey, weak, and just all around bad. In addition, I’ve been having random waves of nausea and headaches. What the fuck man.
As I type this, I can feel another flu like feeling coming on. Sick to my stomach.
Funny thing is, the roomies (as sweet as they are, bless their toes) took me to the hospital Wednesday night. I showed up at the Emergency room complaining of a headache, heart palpitations, and nausea. They took all my vitals and told me that I AM FINE. PERFECTLY HEALTHY.
What I’m feeling right now, certainly isn’t healthy. It’s so far from, and I have no idea as to how to deal with it. Because I don’t know what the eff it is! I took some Theraflu and I felt a bit better, but I still feel really weak. And just crap.
I’m really confused, and honestly, I’m downright scared. Ugh.
I really shouldn’t be blogging right now, but I am because I start work in roughly an hour and I know that if I fall asleep, I would be whisked off into a place that I never want to leave.
I’m currently scouring the web for some new jams and being pleasantly pleased with the results. I originally planned to read for linguistics but I decided, what the hey! I should sit back and enjoy the present before the future comes too soon. So here I am.
I know I need to drive to work but I feel both nauseous and dizzy at the same time. Idk what’s wrong with me. I’ve been getting random waves of nausea lately and it’s alarming me, for sure. But still. Whatever.
I’m really stressed and my mind is jumbled. A lot of my words are probably useless and don’t mean much, but I’m writing as they come and that’s the most honest that I can be, right? School is pretty much killing me, but I plan to go down swinging, if not alive. To make matters worse, I’ve decided that going back into retail was a stupid decision. I really didn’t like it to begin with, and I really don’t know why I went back into it. Banana Republic is definitely a lot more anal, to make matters worse. But, it’s whatever, you know? Gotta do what you gotta do.
A lot of the time, I try to put my responsibilities off only to find them clawing incessantly at my behind for attention. Ugh :(
On the bright side, though, I bought Kiba a dog house and he’s taken to it quite well. Chez Kiba! :D