So its 4am and I typically work in about 5 and a half hours. I’m such a beast.
I’ve been tweaking out on League of Legends a lot lately. It’s a lot of fun but it eats up a lot of my time and before I know it, I would’ve burned through a good 3 to 4 hour chunk out of each of my days. And that’s a lot, considering I’ve barely had time to do anything anymore.
Also, I’m just sorta procrastinating before I go to sleep but…I suppose I should sleep now. And stop reading build guides for Janna, my sexy storm temptress.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I am not a party person by nature.
Given the situation, I can be. I can go to a party and socialize and be ok with everyone. I’m not horribly socially awkward. I won’t be a let down or this big heavy presence of awkward that would ruin the party vibe. But in all honesty, I wouldn’t want to be. Especially when I’m thrown into a room full of strangers. Clubs and raves freak me out because I’m in a place surrounded by strange people who are either piss drunk or drugged the fuck out. And people just meet these temporary things for a temporary night of fun that’s meaningless but fucking fun nonetheless. What’s simple in the moonlight in the morning won’t make sense (quote from Bright Eyes, although it’s probably inaccurate, but you get the gist of it, right?). The party scene just isn’t my scene.
I am, however, a chill the fuck out and hang with good friends and friends of good friends in a place that’s comfortable kind of person. That’s when I can get drunk off my ass knowing people I love and care about will take care of me and laugh when I go around the room stumbling awkwardly into people’s laps and kissing them all goodnight before I K.O on the nearest thing that will hold my weight. And that’s when I can build relationships that mean something. And it wouldn’t just be a night of “whoaaa, I got sooooo fucking wasted.” It would be a “damn, I’m glad I could chill with you. We should totally do it again, get to know each other more.”
I’ve had a taste of both and I’d rather stick with the latter.
I currently have my desktop running in the hopes that it isn’t too beat up to get LoL downloaded on it. I’m a little too impatient to wait for the Mac patch, but it might be better for me considering my mac is in way better shape.
In other news, I just had fried ice cream and it was the bomb diggity.
In other other news, Im excited about being off of work today, tomorrow, and the day after. I get to actually have a mini vacation in which I can sleep in, sleep in my bed, sleep in Kris’s bed, sleep on Kris’s couch, read, draw, fantasize about exercising, and play with my dog to my heart’s content.
I’m also actually honestly concerned about how happy my days have been lately. I need a little bit of suffering every once and a while. It’s the only way I can keep in touch with reality, me being a Pisces and all. I just might float off into the clouds if nothing bursts my bubble occasionally. God forbid.
Beach tomorrow morning! First beach trip of the summer and I am sooo stoked. Yes! :D
Hopefully not the last.
Also, I gained five pounds recently, which is upsetting news for me. I really have to get back into the habit of being super busy all the time because it was the only thing that kept my weight down. And Idk, I just feel super sluggish all the time now. Like, a lot heavier or something. Dunno.
Stairs instead of escalators. Carrots instead of cake. And lots and lots of Agua.
Its nearly 5am and I just got back from the boyfriend’s house. It’s funny how quickly his house has adopted me and how quickly I considered his house to be my second home. Every time I come over, it’s like I see a new part of his house. Parts that a lot of other people have never seen before. Which is pretty cool, I think. His grandparents have a pretty nice bathroom.
I also find it funny how people consider us to be a collective unit now. Like, we know where the other is most of the time. Which is true. And is something I’m not used to, considering I’m good at disappearing and reappearing at will. Ninjalike. Hyah. But he knows where I am and I know where he is and what the other is doing at the time and it’s just a weird mixture of really cute and different for me.
But basically, this is my summer so far. Work, sleep, Kris. Late nights.
I really think I need to break the pattern sometime soon.